Wednesday, May 06, 2009

If a picture is worth a thousand words...


...then I'd like to know the words that describe this picture:


I was working on Carleigh's scrapbook today and this was one of the pictures I placed on one of her pages. This was on March 29. One day after Carleigh's birth. One day after she left us. I was getting released from the hospital. I was getting ready to change her from her hospital outfit into her outfit I would take her to the funeral home in. The emotions in this one picture just pour out to me.

That is a day I never want to relive.

18 comments:

Christina said...

I rewrote my comment about 3 times and none of it sounded right. Did I write too much? Not enough? Should I say that? I have never been where you are right now but I can lend a loving shoulder to cry on if you ever need it.

{the one word that came to mind when I looked at that picture was: WHY?}

Jenilee said...

praying for you as I know you must still be hurting so much.

Sally-Ann said...

Looking at your photo brings back memories of my own. My heart goes out to you and all who have suffered the loss of a child. Looking at your photo I rememered something my husband said as we prepared to leave the hospital after the death of our little girl. He said that he had a Emma size hole in his heart.
Thank you for sharing your journey.

croleyc69 said...

I really don't know what to say but I do that I pray for you daily & think of you so often. Since I have been following your blog it has touched my heart & my life so much. I look at the picture wonder why ? But only the Lord knows that. May the Lord be with you & help you. Need anything just know I'm here. Caroline HUGS

Mindy said...

The picture shows what no one could express in words. There are no words that could convey what you were and are feeling. May God bless you in ways that are not imaginable for the pain that you are going through. I continue to pray for you Holly. And your family.

Cadeemom.

Betty said...

Pain.
and painful acceptance.
Mostly pain.
You are right, I think this picture sums it up. I am so glad that you have had such a great support system through everything.

Celia said...

That picture says it all without words. I am so sorry that you had to experience that day or the day before that or the days leading up to that or the days since that. It is not fair. I am a lot like Christina because the first thing I think is "Why?"

That picture makes a very bold statement of what you were feeling on that day without you having to explain a thing.

If I were there I would give you big hugs because no matter what a hug always feels so very good.

A hug is another thing that conveys so much without having to use any words.....

Kelly @ The Beauty of Sufficient Grace said...

No words...

Just love and prayers for you, my sweet new friend...

Lilyofthevalley - Tanya said...

Picture sure does say a lot, but putting it down in words is another story... :(

Praying the Lord is your comfort.

Lynnette Kraft said...

Bless your heart. Yes, that picture is certainly worth a thousand words. :( I'm sorry.

The good thing is you DON'T ever have to live THAT moment again. The days ahead will be brighter ones.

Love,
Lynnette

Nicole said...

Pain, unfair, void, loss....

The day you have to leave the hospital is so hard...Worst feeling ever.

Joye @ The Joyeful Journey said...

I just found your blog, and I know that today I will be praying for you, Holly. My heart goes out to you. And I know that God grieves with you. I pray you feel his arms around you when you feel the weakest.

MommyIvy said...

This picture says everything. I look at it and see pain. It makes me hurt for you and actually made me cry. I wish I lived closer to you to give you a big hug and a shoulder to cry on. I may not be there, but I am always there for you. You can email me anytime. Stay strong Holly. We are all still praying for you.

Linda said...

Holly, I wish I could reach through blogworld and hug you,... and express my heart to you.

I held our little grandson Samuel close when he had passed on to Jesus,...and I'm sure the look on my face was similar.

I saw my daughter Lynnette's face and it was so full of loss,...just like yours, when she had to let go of her Samuel who also had anencepholy. I know you two have shared your pain and your heartaches in your chats. I know God arranged your meeting each other,...even if it is only in blogworld. It was still meant to be that you should meet each other.

Love & Prayers,
Linda @ Truthful Tidbits

Julie said...

I think the picture says it all. No words are needed. I'm still thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

I want to wrap my arms around you and not let go! That picture breaks my heart and I want to reach right through the computer to you. ~Dawn

becky said...

AS everyone says the pain and anguish are etched so indelibly in your face. How can you put that kind of pain in words. But in the end you were willing to say because I love you this much I let you go back into the arms of our Father in Heaven and when that day comes that we can be back in each others arms this pain on my face will be replaced with a peace, joy, and love beyond all human comprehension.

It hurts for a time [ earthly} but the joy soon will be for all eternity.
I know that brings but small consolation when your heart and your arms feel so empty.

The Martin Family said...

I see so much pain, the question of why, how could this happen? and so much more. Most of all I see hurt and it makes my heart ache for you. It makes me want to cry for you and wish someway, somehow I could make all the hurt go away. We all love Holly. I still send up prayers for you everyday. God Bless.

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