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I Will Be Your Voice
When I look back on that time
It fills me with regret.
The day I had an abortion-
A day I’ll never forget.
I should have been so glad
To be carrying you in me,
But instead I was filled with fear.
So scared and so lonely.
I thought my only option
Was to get rid of you.
It’s not what I really wanted.
I couldn’t face what was true.
Instead of telling my parents
I made the dreaded call.
I didn’t want to disappoint them.
I thought it was best for all.
The day soon came to get it done.
The memory is just a blur.
They said you weren’t a baby.
Just a burden they would cure.
I woke up in recovery
So cold and so numb.
I didn’t realize at the time
Exactly what I had done.
Five years I have denied you,
But no longer can that be.
Your sister opened up my eyes
To the reality I now see.
I murdered you that day-
December 19th of 2002.
But I know that God has forgiven me.
He’s made my life brand new.
No longer am I filled
With all the grief and shame.
He took it all away from me
And I’ll never be the same.
I know that you’re in heaven
Looking down from up above,
But I wish you were here with me,
My baby, whom I love.
It hurts that we’re apart right now
But God still needs me here.
Though He’s preparing a room for me
In a place with no more tears.
Dear Jordan, Mommy’s sorry
For making the wrong choice.
I promise I’ll make it up to you.
I will be your voice.
~Holly Haas, June 2008
When I look back on that time
It fills me with regret.
The day I had an abortion-
A day I’ll never forget.
I should have been so glad
To be carrying you in me,
But instead I was filled with fear.
So scared and so lonely.
I thought my only option
Was to get rid of you.
It’s not what I really wanted.
I couldn’t face what was true.
Instead of telling my parents
I made the dreaded call.
I didn’t want to disappoint them.
I thought it was best for all.
The day soon came to get it done.
The memory is just a blur.
They said you weren’t a baby.
Just a burden they would cure.
I woke up in recovery
So cold and so numb.
I didn’t realize at the time
Exactly what I had done.
Five years I have denied you,
But no longer can that be.
Your sister opened up my eyes
To the reality I now see.
I murdered you that day-
December 19th of 2002.
But I know that God has forgiven me.
He’s made my life brand new.
No longer am I filled
With all the grief and shame.
He took it all away from me
And I’ll never be the same.
I know that you’re in heaven
Looking down from up above,
But I wish you were here with me,
My baby, whom I love.
It hurts that we’re apart right now
But God still needs me here.
Though He’s preparing a room for me
In a place with no more tears.
Dear Jordan, Mommy’s sorry
For making the wrong choice.
I promise I’ll make it up to you.
I will be your voice.
~Holly Haas, June 2008
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