Saturday, April 11, 2009

2 weeks

Today it has been 2 weeks since we said hello and goodbye to our precious Carleigh. I still miss her so much. My arms ache to hold her once again. I was lying on the couch with Kyndra tonight trying to get her to go to sleep and all I could think about was both of my daughters and how I should by lying with both of them right now instead of just one. So I snuggled Kyndra closer and kissed her little cheek and told her I loved her as the tears filled my eyes.

Mommy misses you so much Carleigh. I love you.

8 comments:

nsrush83 said...

Oh, Holly. Just remember God is with you. I dont know if that makes you feel better or not..but its the only comfort I can offer you. Carleigh is with Him. What a awesome place for her to be if she cant be with you?

Mom Putnam said...

Honey--I know it hurts so much and you know how I know that? Because I am your motherand i see the pain in your eyes and i feel the pain in my own heart. I love you and we will see her again, hold on to Kyndra and she will comfort you in her own special way. I'm here whenever andwhatever you need me for. xoxoxo-Mom

Lesley said...

I just happened upon your blog. May God bless you and comfort you during this difficult time. My heart is with you.

Misty said...

Feeling for you, as I'm feeling the same way now that we've passed our sweet Isaac back to God....

What a hard road...

xo Misty

Penny said...

So sorry for the "group" that far too many Mommies have been chosen for. The aching arms and pain in my chest were amoung the worst for me......
So many nights I would wake screaming or with tears running down my face......
You are so right you should be holding your sweet daughters... not grieving while people tell you she is happy in heaven because although I am so sure she is dancing away up there our hearts just long to have them close.
The days do get better..... you never forget and normal takes on new meaning. Now after almost 4 years I get through days without a tear........ I can even feel God's grace and will for little Mackenzie but as her Mommy I still long to hold her......
Praying for you ...........

Celia said...

Holly, I did not read this until late last night but my head hurt to bad to post before now. My heart just aches for you. I know this is difficult. I wish none of us have had to endure this. But the comfort in all of this is that they are happy and whole in Heaven and we WILL see them again! That is such a wonderful promise to cling to.
My heart has been truly aching this weekend for you as well as for Misty and for PJ who will be delivering her sweet Seth on Wednesday. I have grown to love you all so very much and your pain is now my pain. I can't explain it other than while I have never met you in person you are my sister and hold such a tender place in my heart. I feel as though I have known each of you forever. I am sure it has a long to do with sharing this journey but, in the end, all that matters is that you have touched me & because of that I will never be the same.

Anonymous said...

Holly,
Grief is a journey (not a race). It doesn't play fair and it's not easy. Hold tight to Kyndra and remember that Carleigh is in His arms. You're in our prayers and thoughts today, tomorrow, always.
Love, Beth

Mindy said...

Thank the Lord you have Kyndra to hug and kiss. I mean this in the nicest way possible... My Jan baby was my second daughter and as I read your story I forget how hard the times get with two 16 months apart and just love and kiss them. My heart aches for you and the hole that is in it.
Cadeemom.

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