Saturday, March 28, 2009

Carleigh is here

Carleigh McKenna was stillborn at 3:49 am this morning. She weighs 3 lbs 15 oz. She's already had her first bath and has her outfit on. We've gotten hand and footprints. Now we are just spending a little time with her.

106 comments:

melissa said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I have been praying for you throughout your journey.

Alissa said...

I am so happy you finally get to hold your sweet angel- I am sorry for the gain of a angel and the loss of a baby daughter. I cant wait to see pictures of her- I bet she is beautiful just like her big sister and mommy are! You have been in my thougts and prayers. Give her a kiss from all of us please!

Emily said...

I know that saying sorry isn't enough. The thunder woke me up so I could check on you and your beautiful angel. I bet she was a perfect little Carleigh. I hope you can have healing and peace knowing that she is with God and watches you until you go home to her. Hearts are broken for you, and we here will continue to pray as you go through your journey with Carleigh's loss. You were so strong to make it so far, and God knew that about you and your husband.

Emily Johnson (Emmy_Dollface)

Anonymous said...

Holly, I can't imagine the depths of your pain, but I'm glad you finally met your angel. I know she knows how much she is loved. May God be with your family during this time.

Anonymous said...

Holly- my prayers are with your family this morning. The mamas on DS are praying hard for your strentgh and healing. You are strong beyond words Holly, you are an inspiration to everyone. Enjoy your little girl. HUGS!! -Jenifer on Diaperswappers

Anonymous said...

Lord, she is yours now to treasure. Thank you for choosing Holly to get her to this point and now be with Holly, Anthony and the rest of the family as they adjust to your arrangement. ~Dawn

NewfieMomma said...

Heaven has a beautiful new angel and you will always have her watching over your family. So sorry for your loss.

jcrp2005 (cafemom) said...

I thought and prayed about you and your family all night. I'm sorry for the loss of your daughter, but glad that you get to spend time with her. She's in Heaven now and God is close by watching over you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Holly, I am so sorry. I can't find my words right now. Just know I send all of my love, thoughts and prayers.

Denise

The Balduccis said...

Oh Holly I am so sorry for your loss, I am sure Carleigh is just as beautiful as ever. So glad you are being able to spend time with her, I will be thinking of you and prayer for your family. I really admire your strength and courage Holly.

Shannon said...

*Hugs* Hang in there sweetie.

croleyc69 said...

Holly, so sorry for your loss. I don't really know what to say, I bet Carleigh is so beautiful. I will continue to pray for you & your families. Just know that she will always be watching over you a sweet little angel. I thank God that she has such strong parents. May the God keep his hand upon you all. HUGS ccmom69 / CafeMom

Anonymous said...

Holly and Anthony......we are so sorry for your loss. We are keeping all of you in our prayers. We will see you soon! Love, the Fishers.

Sarah (Lovemy918-CM) said...

my heart is just breaking for you and your family. You continue to be in out prayers

Brooks said...

I'm so sorry Holly.

Anonymous said...

Holly, I am so sorry for your loss! May God bring healing to all of your hearts and keep you in His loving arms.

Samantha

stacylynn0610 said...

Holly, I happy that you got to hold your little angel. I'm sure she's beautiful. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Stacy(stacylynn610)-cafemom

Anonymous said...

Holly, I am so sorry that you were unable to spend the time you wanted with Carleigh before God called her home. You know that you and your precious daughter have touched so many lives, and God needed that precious little angel home in heaven with him. I pray that you and your family feel peace and healing in the coming days.
Casey (StClairsWifey)

Anonymous said...

For just as the sufferings of Christ flow into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 1 Corinthians 1:5

May you feel that overflowing comfort from the Lord today and always. So sorry you lost your angel.

Betty said...

Holly, I am so sorry. I truly am. i dont really know what to say at this point, but I pray that God gives you strength. I'm glad that you are getting to spend time with her now. I wish I had something profound and wonderful to say that would ease your pain, but I dont think there is such a thing. We will continue to keep you in our prayers. May God bless you in your time of sorrow.

I have explained what was happening to Luke...he was curious. He said to tell you not to be said because you will see her again in Heaven and God and Jesus are holding her and playing with her. The things that come out of his mouth. :)

Jennifer said...

You have a whole lot of people praying for you right now. You are on my heart and in my prayers. God bless you and your family.

Jennifer
(ABFA)

Laura said...

I bet she is just beautiful!
I wholeheartedly wish that she could stay here on Earth with you, but God has bigger plans for your little girl. I cannot even imagine the pain you are feeling right now. I wish I could give you a huge hug.
You & your family are in my thoughts & prayers.
Love, Laura (emslala)

Anonymous said...

holly ~ so sorry for your loss ~ no words will ever take away the pain ~ but remember that you will be with her again in Heaven someday ~ we have been praying for you and your family along your journey and we will continue to do so during this rough time in your life.
emily31381 from cm

Melissa said...

Holly - I'm so sorry that your little girl slipped back to her Heavenly Father before having any time with her. I pray that He will give you the strength you need at this time. As always, you are an incredible mother and woman. Much love to your whole family. Know that you will see and hold her again.

Rachel (MonicasMommy) CafeMom said...

Holly- I pray that you will be able to find healing through all of this. Your gorgeous daughter was sent here for a purpose. I am so sorry for your loss and will continue to pray for you. God bless you for what you have done for your baby, not everyone would have made that decision. Hug her and kiss her for all of us.

bobbi318 (cafemom said...

I am so very heartbroken for you all! All my prayers are for you right now!

jennagale said...

I'm so sorry for your loss Holly. I think God picked you to be Carleigh's mommy for a reason, and I will continue praying for you and your family.
Jen

Kat (DrusMom) said...

OH HOLLY. I am SO sorry!!!!! I know this isn't how you wanted it. I wish there was something I could do or say to make things better. Enjoy Carleigh...I bet she's gorgeous.

Dori said...

I'm so sorry Holly. My heart is breaking for you. I will pray for you!

Anna (mommy2bmw) said...

Holly,first of all I want to say how sorry I am for your loss. I can't even begin to fathem what your going through. I pray that you continue to take this with such grace and stride as you have throughout the whole pregnancy. Just keep in mind that one day you WILL meet again. God bless you and yours during this tough time.

Anna (mommy2bmw)

Celia said...

We remember the Lord's words in Isaiah 35:5-6 "Then the eys of the blind will be opened and the ears of the deaf unstopped. Then will the lame leap like a deer and the mute tongue shout for joy"

We remember that Carleigh now can do all these things and so much more!! How precious she is that Lord felt he needed her so soon! I am so very sorry that she was not born alive but I will pray for peace to cover you and your family and that you get to spend as much time with her as you want! My prayers will continue to be with you throughout the coming days.

Much love & the peace of God to you all!
Celia

Karolyn (moss0324-cm) said...

Holly, the first thing i did this morning was hit the refresh buttton on you blog. My family is keeping your family in our thoughts and prayers. I'm am ever soo deeply sorry for you loss, my heart really goes out to you and your family. Hug her and kiss her for all of us and we will keep you and your family in our prayers!
Hugs

Anonymous said...

Holly I am so sorry for your loss. I am still praying for you guys.


Steph (Aydans_mommy on cafemom)

2+some Dearborns said...

So sorry for your loss...
God bless you and your family.

Patricksmommy08 CM said...

Oh Holly, my heart aches for you. I hope you find some peace in knowing Carleigh is now with the Lord and an angel watching over her big sister. I will continue to pray for you and your family. God bless you!

Anonymous said...

I just started reading you journal yesterday, it was posted on my Cafemom Jan 2008 Babies group. I can not believe what a strong women you are. You've handled this situation with such grace. I'm so sorry for you loss. I was praying so hard that you got just a little time with her. But you did actually get almost 9 months to hold her, love her, and make her feel safe in the most intimate way possible. She is a very loved little girl who touched a lot of lives. I’m grateful to you for posting your journal for strangers like me to read. I have a new perspective on life and love. She will always be with you and your family. Hugs, Michelle (DamiensMom06)

cassie_caffey said...

Congrats, I am glad she is here in your arms. You are truly special mama and we are all thinking of you. Huge, Huge Hugs!

Anonymous said...

i am so sorry she was born stillborn. i know that was one of your biggest fears. i hope you still got all the pictures and things you had set up for her. i prayed for you last night, and you have been on my mind. God bless you and your family. i am so sorry for your loss and all of your pain. your CM buddies are here for you when you are ready love.

much love and peace, lovinmyseabee

Anonymous said...

Holly, your family's strength is remarkable. God is moving through your lives creating such a testimony of His grace. Lives are being changed by God through your loss. Praise God, what a wonderful purpose that Carleigh and your family has. Continue to enjoy your little angel. I will pray for your comfort, strength, and peace.

The Woollard Family said...

Holly, my heart is aching for you. I'm so sorry for your loss. I know she is absolutely gorgeous. Congratulations on the birth of your angel daughter. Heaven now has a special little angel that you can call all your own. God bless you!

♥Heather (Mom2BaileyAlyse)

Mindy said...

May God rap you in his arms and cover you with the peace and comfort only Christ can give.

Rebecca said...

Holly, i think it is not only shows just how strong and amazing you are of a person to be able to have the strength to make it through this, but that you also had the ability to be so open and share this with many other people. I am so sorry for the loss and the depth of pain you must be feeling. It trutly breaks my heart. God bless all of you.

stitchndeb said...

Oh, Holly, I was so hoping you'd have more time with her, I'm sorry! I know Carleigh is whole and happy in Heaven now, but I know you'd prefer it if she were still with you. Holly, God loves you and is with you always. Your family's in my prayers. ~Debbie

MommyIvy said...

I'm so sorry. I prat great strenght for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

God Bless you!May God be with you and your Family in this Time of loss and guide you down the road of healing I bet shes BEAUTIFUL

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry for your loss. Holly you are such an amazing women. God bless you and your family.

melissa (mommy-2-3) said...

from cm... i've been thinking of you and your family all day yest and this morning... i write this w many tears for your terrible loss and wonderful blessing at the same time to have known you little one inside for as long as you could. i know that god will comfort you during this tragedy and that you will have wonderful memories of your tiny love.. HUGS!

Amber said...

There are not any words that describe the way I feel right now!Tears and happiness at the same time!I know heaven has a beautiful angel i cannot wait to see pics of sweet Carleigh! My blessings and prayers are with you and your family!

Anonymous said...

Congradulations! She is with God now and will be watching over you are your family. I bet she is so perfect. I am so sorry you have to go through this, but God will help you guide your way. I have been praying Holly. We all love you.

Kate from CafeMom said...

Holly, Congrats on getting to meet your beautiful girl.. I know you already know she is perfect in Heaven! Sending thoughts of Truth, Love, and Strength your way!

katianderson said...

I'm sorry for your loss.

Lori (browneyedmomof3) said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby girl. I wil continue to pray for you and your family.

nickiemyers said...

Holly congrats I meeting the new baby girl. I am sorry God decided to take her so soon! We will hold you and your family in prayer tomorrow at church! I am so sorry!

Nickie

Laundry Lady said...

Holly, I'm glad you are finally seeing the face of your sweet baby girl. I am still praying for you as you walk this path with God.

meagansroses said...

fly high sweet angel and stay strong mama!!

Nicole said...

I have only been following your story for a few days, but I have read every one of your posts, and I have been deeply touched by your faith and courage.
I was awake between 3-4:30am, and I was praying for Carleigh and your family.
I know that "sorry" isnt good enough, and I know that we are strangers, but I too am mourning the loss of your baby girl. Im sure that she is a beautiful angel.
I hope that you are feeling
God's peace and comfort right now.

Tami said...

Lifting you and your family up in prayer at this very difficult time. Please know your cafemom friend's are here should you need anything. ((hugs))

Mandy said...

My heart is with you Love....and I am praying for your liltle girl.

Anonymous said...

Words cannot express the sorrow I feel for the loss of your beautiful Carleigh. I pray that God's love comforts you in this difficult time and I know that Heaven is an even more beautiful place with your daughter there. I'm so sorry.

Sailor and Co said...

Psalm 34:18

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Your little angel will be looking over your family always...and thanking you for every moment she had with you all...you are truly a strong woman and a wonderful example of a mother...

Nicole said...

((HUGS)) I am very sorry for your loss sweetie....
Carleigh was a lucky little girl to have you as her Mommy!
~Nicole Mommy to Logan (Carleighs new friend.)

Misty said...

Oh Honey,

You did the most valiant thing a daughter of God could do, you carried your sweet angel to the last possible moment, and you gave her a life time of love inside of you. I am SO proud of you. Beyond words. My heart aches for you, and my tears are for you today. Rest, Love. And we will all be here for you. No matter what.

Lobe, Misty

Nikki (HayliesMomma15 on cafemom) said...

Holly- I am so deeply sorry for yours and your family's loss. I have been thinking about you and praying for you all night, you were the first thing I thought about this morning. Please know that me and my family are so saddened by your story. My husband sends his condolences as, well. Hang in there! God blessed you with this angel because he knew that you and your family were strong enough to endure it. I cannot possibly imagine the depths of your pain,but, know that you are supported and cared about by so many. Give Carleigh a kiss from all of us!

~Nikki

Lindsey said...

I am here by way of Misty. I am so very sorry for your loss. I said a prayer for you and your family as you travel through this trial. Your precious Carleigh is now celebrating in Heaven.

Kim said...

I am so sorry and I will be praying for you and your family

Tim said...

I think Misty said it best. You and your whole family are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sure Carleigh was welcomed into heaven with open arms from Emma and many other that have gone before her. I hope you feel the peace, comfort, and strength of the Lord our God as you face the hours, days, weeks, and months ahead.

Much love,
Tiffany

Laurie, AKA: runmamarun96 said...

i am so incredibly sorry for your loss, holly. you and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. (((big hugs!)))

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry that such a wonderful woman has to go through such an emotional time. I am at a loss for words. Sorry doesn't do justice how I am feeling. I am glad that you are getting to spend some time with her. She is Kendra's guardian angel and I can not wait to see pictures of your beautiful blessing. ((hugs))

Monica and Rylee (monicalappa-CM)

Lindsay said...

You and your family are in my prayers during this difficult time. God will give you the strength that you need. Little Carleigh is now celebrating with Jesus and waiting for you in Heaven. God Bless.

The Mother Load said...

Thank you so much for being so courageous. You have shown Christ to a world filled with people who will do anything not to feel pain. So many of us want to be more like Christ yet run far from pain and loss, both of which lead us into a deeper and more intimate relationship with Him. May The Comforter be close to you as you grieve this tremendous loss.

He is near...

Jeanette Galliher

Anonymous said...

I don't know your family but I came accross your story from Denise. I have been praying for you and your family. I'm sorry for your loss. I will continue to pray for God's healing for your family during this difficult time and for the years to come.

~ Sarah (from craniokids)

Hollie said...

Thank you for sharing your story, and inspiring so many. It is obvious by all of the comments left on this blog that you have touched the life of so many! God puts people on this earth for many of reasons, I belive that God put you here to inspire others and to show them that with God, you can and will get through the hard times. I pray that you and your family continue to have such strong faith as you go through such a difficult time. Congrats=)

Anonymous said...

What a wonderful and sad day all at the same time. You finally get to see and hold your precious girl, but at the same time you have to say goodbye to her. I am crying and praying for you and your family that God will continue to give you the strength and faith you have shown throughout your whole journey with Carleigh. I know you will treasure every moment you get to spend with her. I am so sorry for your loss. HUGS.

Dawn (bakers79 from CafeMom)

Anonymous said...

Holly, our thoughts are with you, Carleigh, and the rest of your family. You have shown such strength throughout this journey. I cannot imagine the heartbreak you feel at this time. We are thinking of you and your precious Angel.

Katie said...

I have been praying for you and your family since December. My heart is broken for you. I will continue to pray for you and your family. May God bless you.

Katie (tired_mom04 on CM)

Kristin (lilysmama23-cm) said...

Holly,
You have been in my thoughts and prayers- I am so sorry the Lord called Carleigh home so soon. Just think she is at home in Heaven with our heavenly father. I pray that you continue to look to the Lord for his guidance and support- here is one of my favorite scriptures.
Num. 6:24-26
Holly I pray that "The LORD Bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the LORD turn his face toward you and give you peace." Amen...

Missmakalia said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

Holly and family, Heaven just became a more beautiful place and All of our ANGELS were there to greet Caleigh into Heaven! Happy Birthday Caleigh !
<3
Kathleen
mom to Edward Maranda
12-13-84
amd Kelly 22,Daniel 19 and James 18

Christie said...

I don't have the words to say other than I had prayed for just a little time for you and your husband to share with her. But I thank you for you amazing strength, and for showing us that we can grow in the midst of pain and sadness. May God continue to bless you and keep you in his arms.
(aggiechristie from cm)

Anonymous said...

Holly, I just wanted to send my thoughts and prayers your way. You've been on my mind a lot the last few days, and I wanted to write and let you know that I've been praying for you. You're a strong woman, and I feel lucky to know someone like you. I will continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Stephanie said...

So sorry for your loss, but glad you got to spend time with your angel. Thinking of you.

Mine's said...

I am so sorry for your loss. You are such a strong woman. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love
Tammy (cafemom)

Anonymous said...

My prayers are with you and your family during this time. I am so sorry for your loss.

Kat (DrusMom) said...

Hey girl. I am still thinking about you. I hope things are going as well as they can be. Love you!

alicia said...

I Just heard about your story yesterday, and I read your entire blog. I am so sorry for your loss. I know that I can never even feel a thread of what you are feeling but I pray that you will never have to go through this pain again. You are a strong person to be able to share this with everyone.

Congrats on your sweet little girl and Its nice to have a little extra someone watching over you from heaven.

Alicia (lovemylittle1)-cafemom

Anonymous said...

Holly- your journey has been so amazing to follow! While I am so sorry for your loss, I am glad that you have gotten your moment to spend with her and she is in a safe place with God! Best wishes to you and your family!

Amy (ajmillberg-CM)

Mellissa (ilovemyjo2 on Cafemom) said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I am glad that you are getting to spend some precious time with her. I am sure she is adorable and everything you thought she would be. She will be waiting for you with open arms in heaven. You will always have an angel looking after you!

meaghan said...

Holly, I'm so sorry....

Scott, Rebecca, & Liam Laughery said...

God Bless you, Carleigh, and your family. You are an amazing, brave, and strong woman. We are all thinking about you.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss

Andi Soergel said...

Dear Holly,
I went to bed praying for you and your family last night. God sees your heart and Carleigh's story will go on! Her life has already touched many and don't ever doubt that it will continue to.
Andi Soergel

sasicas said...

God Bless you my dear. Continue to rely on God. Im sorry...

karen andersen said...

Dear Holly and Anthony,

I am so glad that you finally got to meet your little Carleigh McKenna. She came into the world already at peace, no pain, no suffering. I am glad that you have got to spend time with her and that your family has been there with the both of you.
You are in my prayers. Can you imagine how precious Heaven has got to be with all of our little angels there? Bless you both.

queenofexcaliber said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You are so strong to be able to handle something like this.

Penny said...

My prayers are with you and your family. I am so sorry that you can't keep Carleigh in your arms. For me the pain of letting go was only tempered by the fact that God was carrying us through the valley we were in.

You'll be in our thoughts and prayers..............

Erin said...

Holly, I am so sorry... =(

nsrush83 said...

I know you have heard this all day..but I am sorry. I cant imagine the pain you are going through. Just think of her sitting in Jesus` lap. God has a plan in all of this and some day you will know what that plan is.

10 ‘Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
Isaiah 41:10

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry to hear about your baby girl!! She is now in Heaven looking down on you and your family!! Your story has inspired me and gave me a new outlook on my life!! I wish you and your family the best and Ill keep you in my thoughts and prayers!!! God bless you all!!

My Forever Child said...

God Bless Carleigh and your family. You have touched so many with your faithfulness and devotion. (((Hugs))) and warm wishes to you on your journey of healing.
~Sue~

Momtocccd said...

Holly,
I am so sorry for your loss. Carleigh is soaring with the angels.

tara said...

Hello, u don't kno me but I'm from CM n sum1 posted ur blog. It was very heartbreaking also heartwarming to kno u still spent time w/ her n u got a lot of pics n keepsakes. I've never seen a stillborn baby,I did hear of people havin funerals,is that something ur planning? Well I hope all is well w/ u n ur family,take care! My name on CM is tha-hawt-mommie if ud ever like to chat!!! Xoxo tara

Quiana said...

i am so sorry about your lost and i am prayying for you and your family. just know that god has your babygirl now and he will not let anything happen to her. she is safe now. so just remember everything happens for a reason. i am praying for you...may god bless you and her

Anonymous said...

God surely took the most lovliest of angels to be with him. I am so so sorry for your loss. My prayers go to your and your husband. May God be with you and continue to smile down on you.

Michal Ann said...

Dear Holly and family,

Just as you lovingly dressed your beautiful baby Carleigh, may you feel the Lord clothing you with His grace, love and peace. "Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts." Col. 3: 14-15

Safe with you and Carleigh in His tender grip, Michal

Bree said...

Holly, you are such a courageous and special woman. You made something so difficult and heartbreaking into something so beautiful.

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