Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Poems and a dream

Celia @ Beauty From Pain was so thoughtful and sent me a Reunion Heart. Celia is always able to find neat things like this at her Christian bookstore, which makes me want to frequent mine more to find such little treasures. The heart is silver with a little teardrop on one side and on the other side it says 'God will wipe away your tears'. I think I might put a string through the heart and hang it up. There is a little poem that comes with the heart that is really beautiful. I loved it immediately once I read it.

Since Heaven has become your home
I sometimes feel I'm so alone;
and though we now are far apart
you hold a big piece of my heart

I never knew how much I'd grieve
when it was time for you to leave,
or just how much my heart would ache
from that one fragment you would take

God lets this tender hole remain
reminding me we'll meet again,
and one day all the pain will cease
when He restores this missing piece.

He'll turn to joy my every tear
with thoughts of you I hold so dear,
and they'll become my special way
to treasure our Reunion Day.

Speaking of poems, my friend Mary @ Our Angel Amiee wrote a beautiful one for her sweet daughter, Amiee. I'd love it if you could visit her and read her poem.

On a totally different note, I had quite an interesting dream last night. I forget some details but I'll tell you the gist of it. I was pregnant with triplets, one of which had anencephaly, and I was in labor. I found myself giving birth in one of the Sunday School rooms of the church I grew up in. Anthony was with me and so was a midwife. My sister came in later to take pictures of my anen baby. Anyway, I gave birth vaginally to these babies. I had one baby and then my anen baby came next. It was a girl and she was born breech. Then I had the other baby. My other babies were a boy and a girl. I held my anen baby and she had a head full of blonde hair and she lived a while. Then I woke up. Where the heck do these dreams come from?!?

Yesterday, I mentioned about the videos. So far I have had 2 requests and since I don't think I'll get a lot I have decided to do a video for anyone who requests it. Just leave a comment on this post and let me know if you'd like one. It's open until 8 pm EST tonight.

17 comments:

Kate said...

I love, love that poem! It's almost like it was written just for you, or anyone else, but you know what I mean. How sweet! I had really weird and do have weird dreams about Andy and his accident. Then sometimes when I wake up I have to remember it was only a dream. It's like they (the dreams) haunt you.

Franchesca Cox said...

That poem is beautiful! Thank you for sharing it. I have weird dreams too. I dreamt the other day that I was carrying twins, one boy and one girl. I dreamed about Jenna before she was born while I was carrying her. I loved those dreams...

xx

Jen said...

I just came upon your blog, and tears have been flowing. (I'm not even certain how I am writing right now.)
What an amazing amount of strength you have. That poem was amazing.
I am about to get further acquainted with your story, but wanted to say how wonderful to see your a daughter of Christ allow Him to fill your heart.
And those videos are priceless.

Just Breathe said...

That poem is so beautiful. How sweet of Celia to send you the Reunion Heart. So the dream was very interesting. Could there be twins in your future? Take care Holly, may God Bless you with more!

Jennifer Ross said...

What a sweet poem. Thank you for sharing that with us.

Trisha Larson said...

So weird that you wrote that. I had a very bizzare dream last night too and I never remember my dreams.

I was in the hospital and we were "adopting" a baby that had a heart defect. While I was standing there, the baby died and the doctors told me how sorry they were. I kept thinking "I can't do this again". Then when all hope was lost, I heard a beep, beep, beep, beep and I looked at the heart monitor and his heartbeat was back. I thought that it was a miracle and was so overjoyed. Then I realized that the beeping was my alarm going off and it was time to wake up. It was so disapointing.

Hugs,
Trisha

croleyc69 said...

What a sweet poem & so nice of her to send you that. It fits so perfect. So nice of you also to make the videos. You do such a good job at everything.
Wow Holly 3 babies that's something. I have alot of weird dreams sometimes & I wake up and they seem so real. {{HUGS}} and thanx for sharing.
Caroline

Nan said...

Hi Holly,
Thank you for following my blog, you seem like such a sweet soul. I asked my therapist about where dreams and heavy thoughts come from, and sometimes its from the way we feel strongly for all of the mamas out there who have been through the grief of losing children. Its the way we care for eachother. Just my spin on it anyhow. I love the poems and I thank you for sharing. Hugs, Nan

Bree said...

That is a beautiful poem. Thank you for sharing.

I wanted to let you know that I received the books. I'm so excited. Thank you! I loved Carleigh's stamp on the side of the box. I need to figure out how to get one made for Ella. :)

Brooks said...

Maybe you dream just means that you're not done yet so keep the faith! You will have a BFP soon! (See how I worked that in?)

Jen said...

poem was beautiful..thanks for sharing..I too loved the videos.. they are just darling :) hugs..

Susan Berlien (warmchocmilk) said...

Wonderful peom. Your blog expresses such raw emotion. It's a gift to be able to open up in that way.

Mary said...

That poem was so beautiful!
Where do dreams come from? I had a dream to the other night about Amiee, I'll email you about it. It was kind of strange.
Thanks for the link to my blog and poem! :o)

September said...

Holly,,, Thank you again for your blog about Carleigh! You have certainly brought much glory to God through such a hard time thru your blog.
Just wanted to again thank you for the promptings to order our stone for the babies. We made the trip to get that done, and I actually thought about you while I was there.
Thanks friend.

Laura said...

I love the poem!
I never have dreams- I wish I did- I wish he'd show up in there or I'd get some sort of 'message'- but in six years I have yet to have had it happen. I like the dreams though- and hearing about them...
God Bless!
Laura

Once A Mother said...

I don't know where these dreams come from. I had one the other night that a large monument was put up near Peyton's grave. I was so sad, I felt like she was being overshadowed. I woke in a panic. It's funny the way our loss finds our dreams. Thank you for sharing the poem as well.

Jess said...

Hi Holly, I think that is so cool you are doing those videos, what a sweet thing to do! My sisters got me a reunion heart ring, just like the one you described, and it had the same poem in it. It is so special, what a neat gift!

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