Poems and a dream

Celia @ Beauty From Pain was so thoughtful and sent me a Reunion Heart. Celia is always able to find neat things like this at her Christian bookstore, which makes me want to frequent mine more to find such little treasures. The heart is silver with a little teardrop on one side and on the other side it says 'God will wipe away your tears'. I think I might put a string through the heart and hang it up. There is a little poem that comes with the heart that is really beautiful. I loved it immediately once I read it.

Since Heaven has become your home

I sometimes feel I'm so alone;

and though we now are far apart

you hold a big piece of my heart

I never knew how much I'd grieve

when it was time for you to leave,

or just how much my heart would ache

from that one fragment you would take

God lets this tender hole remain

reminding me we'll meet again,

and one day all the pain will cease

when He restores this missing piece.

He'll turn to joy my every tear

with thoughts of you I hold so dear,

and they'll become my special way

to treasure our Reunion Day.

Speaking of poems, my friend Mary @ Our Angel Amiee wrote a beautiful one for her sweet daughter, Amiee. I'd love it if you could visit her and read her poem.

On a totally different note, I had quite an interesting dream last night. I forget some details but I'll tell you the gist of it. I was pregnant with triplets, one of which had anencephaly, and I was in labor. I found myself giving birth in one of the Sunday School rooms of the church I grew up in. Anthony was with me and so was a midwife. My sister came in later to take pictures of my anen baby. Anyway, I gave birth vaginally to these babies. I had one baby and then my anen baby came next. It was a girl and she was born breech. Then I had the other baby. My other babies were a boy and a girl. I held my anen baby and she had a head full of blonde hair and she lived a while. Then I woke up. Where the heck do these dreams come from?!?

Yesterday, I mentioned about the videos. So far I have had 2 requests and since I don't think I'll get a lot I have decided to do a video for anyone who requests it. Just leave a comment on this post and let me know if you'd like one. It's open until 8 pm EST tonight.

My first dream of Carleigh

Last night I had a dream about Carleigh. It's my first dream ever of her. It was such a great dream that I feel blessed to have been given it. It felt so real.

I don't remember how the dream started out but I was in the hospital in labor and soon to give birth to Carleigh. It wasn't a hard labor as I didn't seem to be in any kind of real discomfort. Anthony was there hanging out while I did my thing. The next part of the dream skipped over the delivery. In that next moment I was being handed my daughter. She was swaddled in a blanket. They had told me that she was already gone.

Carleigh was so beautiful. She was even more beautiful in my dream. Her head was not open at all but totally closed. She had skin and lots of hair on top of her head. She still had anencephaly but you couldn't really tell. I couldn't believe at that moment she was gone because she looked so alive.

The doctor came to exam Carleigh so he took her away for a little bit. When he came back he was smiling and he said that she was still alive. He handed her to me and I could see that she was! She had her eyes open and she was just looking at me. She moved her arms and legs around and made little newborn noises. My mom, dad, and sister were there and they each took turns holding her. Sometimes it looked like she was struggling a little bit and each time I would take her back-afraid that it was the end, but she held on.

I was holding her and she was still alive when I woke up so I never got to see how the dream ended. Upon waking, I could still feel the abundant love from my dream. The first thing I thought when I woke up was "Wow, that was amazing." Amazing, indeed.