Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Leaving the hospital

I cherished the time I spent with Carleigh. Even though she was only with me in body, I loved every minute of it. She had captured my heart from the beginning of her life, and the moment she was born I realized what a true miracle from God she is. She was born the way she was meant to be and I wouldn't change a thing. She was perfect in my eyes.

I knew at some point we would have to leave the hospital. Not an event I was looking forward to at all. I was grateful at least that I didn't have to leave the hospital empty-handed like so many other mothers. I was able to carry my little girl and we left together (although not to a place I wanted to go). We left March 29th-the day after Carleigh was born.

Walking out of the main lobby of the hospital. Carleigh is in my arms. My dad is pushing our cart with our things with my mom behind him. Anthony's mom is carrying Kyndra and my nurse Michaella is following.

It's hard to take my eyes off of her.

My sweet little bundle.

Waiting to go outside.

Anthony pushing our cart of things our to our van.

Anthony escorting me & Carleigh out of the hospital.

In the van and ready to leave.


April said...

I can only imagine how hard leaving the hospital and not going home was for you. I know your whole experience with Carleigh has impacted your life greatly. Thank you for sharing your photos.

Linda said...

Holly, Thank you for including us in these bittersweet memories of your precious Carleigh.

You are one amazing girl! God chose you to be His handmaiden, and you minister well.

I just love you and the many facets of your life,...and how you have a heart for helping others.

I have said this before, but you have gone through so much for your age. Yet you use it all for His glory.

Thank you for sharing your faith with so many.

Love, Linda @ Truthful Tidbits

Lynnette Kraft said...

Oh those pictures are ... I can't even describe the emotion they stir in me. You have touched my heart over and over again. Carleigh's life has made a difference in mine. I've watched you along this journey and see our Savior so clearly.

Thank you Holly.

Betty said...

Thank you so much for sharing those beautiful pictures! I'm glad you were able to document each thing. You will cherish those pictures all your life.

Joye @ The Joyeful Journey said...

Oh Holly, your face just speaks words. I can't imagine how that felt, although I did have to leave the hospital without my baby in my arms. I'm sure that it was hard. I pray God heals your heart wholly. I can tell the memory of your sweet Carleigh is cherished.


September said...

Holly -
I could feel the love for your Carleigh as I read this post. It made my heart hurt. Leaving the hospital is so very hard. I remember. Your comment about her being so close to your heart as you carried her was so truly beautiful.
I love this psot- it is straight from your heart.
Thank you. Your posts mean a lot to me.

Mindy said...

Oh Holly I can't imagine. I just cry for you. I am so glad that God is working through you through all of this you are going and have gone through. Your strength in the Lord is amazing.

Jodi Lansink said...

Wow Holly---how hard that had to have been---I can't even imagine, yet I will be in the same boat soon. I think it is woonderful you got to take her yourself, not sure what our plans are yet. Thanks for all the updates, it makes it so nice to know what we are going through, we are not alone, I don't wish this on anyone, but it is comforting knowing you have went through it, and are such a strong person, gives me hope!

croleyc69 said...

So special & the tears are running down my face. Thanx so much for sharing that.You are so strong Holly. HUGS :)

Celia said...

This breaks my heart because I remember that this was one of my wishes with be able to leave the hospital WITH him in my arms. Sadly, that did not happen for me. Your pictures and story bring back all those emotions and my heart aches freshly for you all over again. I know how hard that was. I love you sweet friend for sharing this. My heart is aching with you over our losses.

Nickel Pickle said...

Leaving the hospital empty handed is the worst feeling ever. I am glad you were at least able to carry your sweet baby girl out...Dont know if it hurt any less though.

easytravel said...

smile... thanks for share. have a great baby, congratulation. nice picture also. I'll wait you on my blog. cheers

Charity said...

A walk no mother should have to take.

Loving you from Utah. Missing Isaac as you miss Carleigh.

Jessica said...

When you wrote "I was grateful at least that I didn't have to leave the hospital empty-handed like so many other mothers." I just remembered me leaving the hospital as Addie was flown to utah and thinking "how I must look with baloons and flowers and no baby" Altho I did not touch what you have went through it was still hard to not have my baby.

I agree with other posters that this couldn't have happened to anyone else more special than you! You have so much strength! And you for to share these moments with us, it just show a lot from you!

thank you for sharing!

The Martin Family said...

I can't imagine how hard leaving the hospital was for you. I still tear up every time you share a memory.

Rebecca said...

I don't know how you have survived all that you have been through and seen. Your memories of your precious time with Carleigh are so beautiful to read. Thank you for sharing her with us. And bless you for being brave and for knowing that you are part of a greater plan. Carleigh rests in the arms of His love.

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