Wednesday, March 17, 2010

What a tough day

Today at work was pretty tough. It was a combination of several things-Carleigh's upcoming birthday, my care with rainbow, and reading a pregnancy after loss book. I just felt on the edge all day while I was working. I felt like any minute I would break and just lose it. It was harder toward the end of the day but I made it through. When I got home with Kyndra I felt much better and the rest of the day was fine.

I wonder what tomorrow will bring for me. Hopefully it will be better but tomorrow makes no promises.

21 comments:

Just Breathe said...

I'm so sorry. ((HUGS))

Jennifer Ross said...

I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers Holly.

((hugs))

Mindy said...

Holly, In a counseling class I took the Prof. showed us a graph of at traumatic incident and then the ups and downs of coping with the situation and at the one year mark the stress of that situation was higher than it was when it actually happened. My grandpa (who was my hero) passed away the day my first was born (his first great grandchild) and her one year birthday party was hard for me. To see her birth date is hard for me because that day was so bittersweet. I kept telling myself that the one yr mark is the hardest. I pray for you because the loss you have is inconceivable to me and I pray that you will cling to the One who can carry you through this time. Much Love~ Mindy (Cadeemom).

Anonymous said...

Hugs and prayers, Holly. These days come, sometimes without a reason. I can certainly understand your feeling this way with Carleigh's BD coming up.I'm so sorry and I hope tomorrow is better.
Blessings, Sarita

Trisha Larson said...

Tomorrow brings HOPE my friend.

Your year of "firsts" is almost done. God will carry you through the rest of it...just let Him.

I'm here too!

Hugs,
Trisha

Karin said...

Lifting you up in prayer, Holly.

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Love you...praying...

croleyc69 said...

Praying for you always Holly. {{HUGS}}
Caroline

{:miss v:} said...

I'll be praying for you sweet friend.

The Ramirez Family said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that you will have a better day tomorrow.

((HUGS))

Jen said...

sorry Holly :( praying today is easier and better..((hugs))

Jaime said...

I hope today was a little easier for you, Holly. xo

lost--for--words said...

Oh Holly.... These are tough times... I've been finding that the weight of the world on my shoulders has been alot heavier lately too. I can't think about much else other than 'this time last year.....' Sending you love and strength... and know that we will get through this together.

AKD said...

I'm sorry that I didn't see this until now, but I hope today brought you peace and happiness. Hugs to you!

The Blue Sparrow said...

I'm sorry today was a tough one for you. I just said a prayer for you for peace and stenght for the upcoming days. I'll be thinking of you. *HUGS*

Nan & Mike said...

HUGS xxx

Mary said...

As the days go by, I hope that you are able to find some moments of peace. It was harder on the days leading to the birthday and then the anniversary. But, you take it one moment at a time and that is all you can ask of yourself.

Lori said...

Have been praying for you...lifting you up!

Mom Putnam said...

My dear Baby Girl, (yes, you will always be MY baby) as the time approaches of the 1 anniversary of Carleigh's passing there is no doubt it will be very hard that day but God has carried you this far and HE will help you this day too. Just lean on him and call on him for the help and guidance and the day I am sure will be just a litlle bit more easy for you to get through. I know it will be that way for me too. I love you and look to the day to see my little granddaughter again.
Love you much-Mom

Heather said...

I'm praying for you, Holly.

Jessica said...

*hugs* Its an emotional time. *hugs* Thinking of you.

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