Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Carleigh's gonna be.....

A BIG SISTER!!

After 9 months of trying it has finally happened! I am PREGNANT!


This road of TTC has been trying for me. I thought it would be so easy for us to conceive but it wasn't. The months passed and each month we were left disappointed. I stomped my feet at the unfairness of it all. I have taken losing my daughter with a lot of grace in my opinion, so why couldn't God just give us this!? Conversations and scripture with Trisha helped me realize that I just needed to trust God's plan in all of this. I trusted Him with Carleigh and He brought me through it all. He could certainly handle this!

I hoped very much that this would be our month. I wanted to start the new year off with a new life. The day AF was supposed to come came and went. I took 3 tests over the next few days and they were all negative. It wasn't until a week later that I got my very faint positive. Thank you Christina for prompting me to test one more time.

I found out yesterday and in that moment I was very excited but also quite shocked! I wanted to cry but I couldn't! My body just couldn't! But then I also got scared. I don't want anything to happen to my rainbow baby and I'm afraid of that happening. I'm putting my hope and trust in God on this new adventure we are on. Pregnancy after loss. And I know it is difficult to read this if you are a mommy who is still trying for her rainbow or if your have lost your rainbow. My heart goes out to each of you.

Please keep us and our rainbow baby in your prayers. We would appreciate that so much!!

(If you wanna know more go to my family blog.)

80 comments:

Lachlan's Mum said...

I'm so happy for you!! This is wonderful news. Sending lots of sticky vibes for a very uneventful 9 months for you.

I understand being scared. It's so hard not to worry. You have such a beautiful attitude.

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lovingmylife said...

Congratulations! I am so happy, I have been praying God would bless you with another beautiful baby.

I will pray that you don't worry too much. :-)

Jus and Kat said...

A heartfelt congratulations Holly! Praying for you and your rainbow!

Hugs,
Kat @ In Dylan's Memory

He & Me + 3 said...

That is so wonderful. I will pray for your family.

Angela Donaldson said...

I am so so happy for you sweetie. I will walk this journey with you too.

Keep on smiling and call me anytime

Sara and Justin Barrios said...

This is so fantastic!! I am so happy for you and your family!!

The Blue Sparrow said...

Congrats Holly! Carleigh is going to be a proud big sis! Im so happy for you guys! *HUGS*

Mom Putnam said...

Got to tell you that this GRANDMA is VERY excited and all I have to say is "THANK YOU, JESUS!!!!!!"

Tina said...

Oh Holly I am so happy for you! Hoping and praying everything goes by the book for the next 9 months. xx

chadandnikki said...

Yay!! Yay!! Yay!! This is awesome. Praying for ya'll. I'm so excited for you.

Just Breathe said...

Congratulations, that is beautiful news.

Once A Mother said...

such joyous and wonderful news! congrats to you and your whole family Holly. Sending you many, many hugs and wishes for an easy pregnancy.

Jodi Lansink said...

Congrats Holly!!!! I am soooo happy for you!!! I know you have been wanting this for so long, God had a plan! I will pray for a healthy mom and healthy little one!

stitchndeb said...

OH MY GOSH!!!!! This is wonderful news!!!!! Congrats Holly and Anthony!! ~Debbie

House of Collinsworth said...

Congratulations! Praying for you and this precious little one!

Anonymous said...

What exciting, wonderful news! I can't believe it! Many congratulations!
Blessings, Sarita

Franchesca Cox said...

Holly, I am so SO happy for you. I was actually thinking about you and how you were TTC today. I cannot believe it, I am thrilled for you!!!! I started reading that book Pregnancy After Loss tonight too, so ironic. I strongly recommend it. Actually if I finish it soon enough I will send it to you if that is okay :) I have only read a few pages but it is a good read. Jill from Footprints on our Hearts sent it to me.

I am just SOO happy! HUGE Congrats!

XOXO

Jennifer Ross said...

Oh, sweet Holly, this has made my night!! I got the chills, and my eyes filled with tears, when I read this wonderful news. God is with you... refuse to believe anything negative about this sweet blessing. I will be keeping you in prayer, every day:)

Love to you,
Jenny

scubaloo4 said...

OMG Holly I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy for you! You guys really deserve a rainbow!!!! This is the first thing that has made me happy in weeks!!!!!! CONGRATS!!!!

ForeverElliot'sMommy said...

CONGRATS!!!!! So happy for you!!!!

babyrndeb said...

congratulations!! I'm glad I logged on today to see this happy news.

Betty said...

congrats. I am so happy for you. prayers and hugs

Anonymous said...

Oh Holly I am so happy for you! You and your family will remain in my prayers! Congrats!
- Kelli Penwell

Heather's House said...

I am so happy for you. Praying that all goes well!

croleyc69 said...

Once again Congrats so much !! God is great and God is sooooooo GOOD !!!
Caroline

Ashley & Chris said...

so so so so so happy for you!

Trevor's Mama said...

Congratulations! You are further proof that God is our great creator. I wish you and your new addition all the best, and I will be praying for you! God bless.

Lucy and Ethel said...

Just read the news - CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Sending big hugs and lots of prayers from NC -

Lucy

Stacy D said...

So happy for your Holly! Being pregnant again after losing a child is a time of great joy... but please know that your sweet Carleigh hasn't been forgotten. I know that you are already a family of 3... and will become a family of 4.

Praying for you guys :)

~ Stacy

HappyascanB said...

Wahoo!! Congrats! So very happy for you!!

Sarah said...

Congrats, Holly! I'm not sure if I've commented on your blog but have been reading for quite some time now. I'll be praying for your heart as you navigate this next part of your grief journey.

Melissa A. said...

Congrats Holly!!! I am so very happy for you. I will keep you and your entire family in my prayers!

Tanya (lexi.mommy @ cafemom) said...

Congratulations! I am so very happy for you and your family! You have been in my prayers ever since I read about Carleigh's diagnosis. I followed your journey, prayed, and cried with you. I know you said you weren't able to cry when you got the positive, but tears of joy are flowing from me. I will be adding baby sissy to my prayers. YEA!

Karen said...

So very happy for you! I will be praying for you and this little one in your womb.

Amy said...

Congratulations! So happy for you! Praying for a beautiful and easy pregnancy!

Rachel said...

Congratulations. That is wonderful. This rainbow will be bittersweet and a little scary but as you know He will not give us anything we can't handle. But sometimes don't you wish He didn't trust us so much. Many prayers and blessings to your family. That is just wonderful.

AKD said...

Hooray-hooray! Congrats, that is just so awesome! You are totally normal to be scared - it's terrifying and thrilling!

Mary said...

Holly this is such great news. Congratulations. I can't imagine the emotions you are going thru and will go thru but we will pray with you for a happy heathy baby.

nickiemyers said...

I am Super happy for you! You deserve this more than anything! I will pray that it all turns out wonderful for you! God Bless you and your family!

James Patrick said...

How wonderful! I am so happy for you Holly :-) Praying for a healthy pregnancy and baby!

Rebekah said...

Congratulations!!! It is so hard waiting while TTC- especially after a loss- and then 40 more weeks of waiting to meet this precious one! One of my friends from my support group passed this wisdom on to me- she reminded me to enjoy each and every moment of the pregnancy because that way if something were to happen again I'd be able to look back with happy memories and no regrets. It's easier said than done but kept me smiling through the puke :)

I'll be praying for you!

Christie said...

Yay!! So glad to read this! And I will be praying that all goes smoothy.

I once read a church sign that said "God's delays are not denials". It was after having gone through some trials and trying so hard to understand His plan. At that moment a peace came over me and I realized that my timing is not always his time. You're right thought, it's tough to trust when you're wanting to hold a little one so badly.

Oh, I'm just so happy for you!

Trisha Larson said...

Yea!

Congratulations!!!

Hugs,
Trisha

Missing Kasey said...

Congratulations!!!!

Nicolle

Anonymous said...

(mommy-2-3 from cm)
i am sooo very happy for you and your family!!! you are in my everyday thought and prayer. your strengh thruout your last pregnancy and every single day after has made me look at my own life with a different outlook.

you are so very blessed i will continue to keep you in my prayers for the rest of your pregnancy! :)... btw i requested to be accepted in your fb page for carleigh :) HUGS!!!

Melissa Benzel

Jennifer Bovee said...

YAY! Congrats Holly and family! I am so happy for you and will definitely keep you and your sweet babe in my payers!

Mary said...

So excited for you! I loved the picture of multiple tests, I have to test a million times too! Praying for your little one!

Lauren said...

Yay, congratulations Holly! I'm so happy for you!

Heather said...

Congrats!!! I am so happy for you!!!

Jill said...

Oh Holly, I am so excited for you and happy that Carleigh will get to be a big sister!! Sending you LOTS of HUGS!

Kristy said...

Oh Holly, what amazing news!! I am SO happy for you. I wish you nothing but an exciting, healthy, quick nine months. I can't wait to read about your new little bundle. Lots of *hugs*

Cecilia said...

That's amazing news! I will happily move you from TTC to pregnant on my prayer list =). Congrats!!!!

The Runge Family said...

COngrats Holly! I am so happy for you!

Jen said...

Congratulations!!!
So exciting, and I am SO happy for you guys :)

Kelly @ The Beauty of Sufficient Grace said...

I'm so excited for you, dear friend!!!! Rejoicing, rejoicing, rejoicing!!!!!!! And, how awesome to see so many sending their love and support! Beautiful....

Love you...

I luv my Life as a Wife and Mommy said...

YAY! Congrats! So exciting! Lots of prayers!

Christy said...

AMAZING news, Holly! So happy for you. You are definitely in my prayers. Keep us updated on how you are doing!

Yaya said...

Oh yay!!!! Congratulations!!!!

Yaya said...

Oh yay!!!! Congratulations!!!!

Andrea said...

Holly,

I feel nothing but love and happiness for you...I'm crying happy tears! No one deserves to see a + sign more than you, as you've held us all up and offered so much love. Your 9 month wait gives me great HOPE and :)

I'll be praying for you and your RAINBOW baby and hope to be chasing you very soon :)

Much love to you...such wonderful news!

~J's Mommy~ said...

Congratulations! I am so excited for you!!!!!

Jess said...

So beyond excited for you, Holly, I've been praying for this. May God just fill your heart with peace and comfort as you dream of your rainbow baby!!

Lynnette Kraft said...

CONGRATS!!! My momma told me that you were pregnant and so I had to come over and congratulate you. YEAH!

Love,
Lynnette

Amber said...

Congratulations. I am so excited for you and will be saying lots and lots of prayers for you over the months to come!

Jess said...

After all these comments, I feel like congrats isn't enough, but it's all I've got. Congrats!

Lisette said...

Congratulations, I am so happy for you. I pray you be blessed with a wonderful pregnancy. Sending ((HUGS)) your way.

Shelly said...

Congrats! I just got a BFP also after losing our sweet Andrew in May. We have a scary road ahead of us but I know we can get through it with our angels help!

Designs by Juls said...

Congratulations Holly! I will be praying!

Akul's mama said...

Holly I am so happy for you. We have had so much rain and we all need rainbows so much. Hugsss.

Erin said...

many congrats! that is so awesome for you and your family!!

lost--for--words said...

Oh Holly!!! I am so happy for you guys! I just knew that this new year would be full of good things for you. You are an amazing person, and a wonderful mother. Carleigh must be smiling down on you in antipation of meeting her little sibling. This Pregnancy after loss thing is quite a rollercoaster ride, I hope for both of us a very happy experience at the end of it all (((hugs hugs!)))
I owe you an email, btw. I haven't forgotten, and will get on it soon ;) You've been in my thoughts.

Henninger Family said...

I have been patiently waiting for this post :) I am so happy for you and will be praying for the little one growing inside of you!

Emily said...

Wishing you the most uneventful, smooth and boring pregnancy ever! ((hugs)) emily from stepping stones

Sara said...

Congrats!! I am so happy for you! Crossing my fingers that everything goes well and also that our turn is soon!! :)

Jessica said...

*hugs* This is great news. The road to TTC after loss can be such a frustrating one...I am experiancing that now, but as you said God has a plan for us all!!

Praying for you and your rainbow. :)

Shannon (Coupon Mommy Of 2 ... Now 3) said...

Congrats to you and I will be praying for you!

http://couponmommyof2.blogspot.com/

Kari @ p.s. love.love. said...

Oh my goodness, I just got chills. That is so wonderful and exciting! I wish we could give cyber hugs or something! I CANNOT wait to be on this journey watching you over the next 9 months. How fun! So glad you shared with all of us! Congrats! Congrats! Congrats! What a blessing!

Marie W said...

Holly, you made my day! Congrats!

Paige said...

How are you feeling??

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