Day 21 ~ Capture Your Grief ~ Altar/Shrine/Sacred Place

Day 21 of Capture Your Grief wants us to share a photo of your special place in your home/garden for your baby.

A special place we have in our flower beds is beneath our weeping cherry tree. The concrete statues and bench we got from family members as gifts after Carleigh was born. Aside from the hostas, I haven’t really planted anything else in that area but would like to.

In our home, I don’t have one specific place yet for my babies. Things are more scattered around the house. Carleigh’s memory chest and Jordan’s memory box are up in Lainey’s bedroom. Carleigh’s belly cast, funeral flowers, and a canvas of her picture is in our bedroom. There’s a couple pictures and her baby board in the living room. I am hoping sometime in the near future to be able to set aside that special place.

Garden Winner

Time to announce the winner of my Garden Giveaway!

Congratulations to Sue!

Sue has won the Burt's Bees Gardener's Tote. Sue shared with me pictures of her memorial garden for her son Matthew. I absolutely love the circle stone with the little angel on it. It's so unique!

But I want to give an honorable mention to Debbie for the beautiful purple bush she shared with me. I wish I had this bush in my yard!! So I'm sending her a Burt's Bees tin pack.

I will email both of you ladies to get your prizes out to you! Thank you so much for sharing your gardens with me!!

4 weeks

It's been 4 weeks since Carleigh's birth and 3 weeks since we buried her. My plan was to go back to work next week but I guess I would need a doctor's note to do so since it is before the standard 6 weeks. But I've decided to go ahead and take the full 6 weeks. I was going to go back early so I could still have some time left in case I needed to use it. If I need to have a day off I'll just take it without pay.

My body is recovering extremely well and my heart, though it will always ache for her, is healing with the help of God.

Today I pulled some weeds outside. As I pulled the weeds I listened to Carleigh's songs. (My husband declared I was going to bust the speakers on our computer as I had them turned up quite a bit to hear it from outside.) So I pulled and pulled and thought of my baby. And Kyndra, too, as she was jabbering at me the whole time. There was no way you could ignore her even if you tried. I felt good. The sun was shining. The breeze was blowing. Birds were happily chirping. The soft, pink blooms on my weeping cherry tree reminded me of the color of Carleigh's fuzzy pink blanket. We received a few gifts from family that can go in our flower beds. However, we need to waterproof them first. There are a few statues, a tablet, and a bench. I'm not sure if we will stick them all outside. I know for sure we'll put the bench out.

Oh, how I miss her!