Wednesday, October 12, 2011

My Hope Is In You, Lord


I’ve been thinking a lot about my babies lately, especially Carleigh. The moments of missing and sadness have been a little more lately. I don’t know whether that is because this month is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness month so everything is more present in my mind or if it’s just regular cycle of grief. Maybe both.

I took the picture below on October 7th right outside our home. We live in a very small town and just across the way is a grain mill that many of the local farmers bring their corn and soy beans to. The sunset this night was particularly beautiful for our area and I thought I would capture it. It reminded me of my babies with both the purple and the yellow hues. I can only imagine the colors they have in Heaven. It’s hard to fathom they have colors up there I’ve never even seen!


Even though when moments of missing hurt, I still have my hope. I will never lose my hope in the Lord no matter what trials I face in this life-there is nothing that can shatter it.

But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit. Jeremiah 17:7-8

Aaron Shust has a song out called My Hope Is In You. I absolutely love this song. It is one of my favorites and I always sing along when it is on. Today I saw the music video to the song. Oh. My. Gosh. The video is simply amazing and had my crying. Well, sobbing would be a better word. And then at the end of the video I see my favorite hymn. Wow.

My hope is in You, Lord
All the day long
I won't be shaken by drought or storm
A peace that passes understanding is my song
And I sing
My hope is in You, Lord

Yes, Lord, my HOPE is in YOU.


Amy von Oven said...

I don't know what it is....I too have had a hard time. I just wrote on my blog Sunday about how much I was Missing Bethany, and I heard this same song on the way home tonight and just posted it on the Angels with Christ Page. I could not believe it when I just saw it on yours too. I think it is just God showing me how true it is to have hope in Him even when times are hard and I miss Bethany like crazy! Praying for you!

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Beautiful the thought of colors in heaven that we've never seen before.

I am with you...feeling the missing during this season. I wish so badly I could be joining all of you in Minnesota. My heart will be with you. I'm also wishing I would have at least met the deadline to honor my Faith, Grace, and Thomas with a luminaria...I've been so consumed with the busy. But, I will be remembering my sweet babes and many others on that special day. Praying that your trip is a blessing.

Love to you...

Amy said...

Love this song.Love you to Holly. You are all making miss Sarah Eve!

AKD said...

Gentle hugs to you.

Stacy said...

I was doing ok through the video, until the part when they get the news. It was the part I related to most - which is when I started crying. I'm so thankful that I have a relationship with the Lord...I cannot imagine going through this without Him. even when it hurts, He is there and He is all sufficient. What a good song. That is one of my favorite hymns too.

I got my pin today... LOVE it, thank you!

Caroline said...

What a beautiful picture.

I have been thinking a lot about my babies. I really love this song.
Praying for you and for your trip. You have helped me so much since I found your blog & of course your precious <3 Carleigh <3 is so special to our family.
Much love always

Ashley said...

I love this post. Well not that you have had a hard time but just the way you process it and find 'signs'. I am not a constant blogger or blog reader but have loved to read your blogs. You helped me more than you will ever know and now watery eyed with excitement for your new news!

Trisha Larson said...

Yea, as the holiday's approach, and the diminishing sunlight and cold weather allows for more time indoors (less distracted) it's more on my mind too. And all of the crazy halloween gravemarkers and skeletons that cover our neighborhood don't help at all. It's definitely a tough time of year.


Carol said...

I am so happy you found my blog and my post about Kelly at Sufficient Grace. I am in a state of sorrow and loss and the babies are not even mine. I can not imagine if I were in your situation. All I can do is love on those who have lost and I find myself complete caught up in their situations. I have blogfriended Kelly and was so in awe of her gift...just to know she is real. I feel as though I know so many of you in the blog world. I am so sorry for your loss and thankful you are pressing on through the sorrow and the missing...

CynthiaS said...

It must have been in the air, that was also a rough time for both Greg and myself. I find the changing of seasons to be difficult with a new wave of grief for some reason. You are right, if I had not put all of my hope and faith in God, I would have never made it through the most difficult times and still daily. HUGS to you and your new sweet with baby :)

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