Sunday, November 28, 2010

2nd Thanksgiving

Well we've made it through our 2nd Thanksgiving without her. It was definitely easier than last year I think. I thought about last year. I don't really remember much about it other than I was missing her. I remember driving home and telling Anthony that it would've been a better Thanksgiving if she had been here. Then I got to thinking about the Thanksgiving before that when she was still alive in my womb. We hadn't yet found out that she wouldn't live. I have no idea what we did that Thanksgiving and I didn't write it down. I kinda wish I would've.

Both of our parents came down for the day. We ate and visited. I wanted so much to go to the cemetery but by the time our parents left it was getting dark and it was still raining. I didn't want to take the girls out in that weather. So I figured I would just go after church on Sunday. Well, that didn't happen because Kyndra was sick. So I didn't get to visit at all, which makes me a little sad.

I know Thanksgiving is supposed to be the time you reflect on all your thankful for but I just didn't do a whole lot of that. I know what I am thankful for and I figure I don't need a special day to remember that. At least that's how I felt this year. Thanksgiving is a good time to get some yummy food! I'm always up for that! :) So that is what I enjoyed this year.

Here's hoping everyone else's Thanksgivings went alright...

Oh yeah, today is 20 months too. That only reminds me that we're getting closer to 2 years. Crazy!!

14 comments:

tomandcheryl said...

I don't really know what to say but I wanted to comment to let you know that I was thinking about you. Thats all.
~Cheryl

heathermohr said...

Thinking of you! It was easier for us this year too, but last year was only 3 months...

Radiant Readhead said...

I surely hope that next holidays are easier than they have ben this year for us. you give me hope and strength that they will be:-) thanks for the advice on the TTC, and I hope it is just taking a little longer b/c of nerves....i will email you some of the pics tomorrow;-)

croleyc69 said...

Been thinking of you and especially Carleigh lately. I'm glad things were easier this year. I always think of her on the 28th prolly cause my girl and her were so close in age. She is def in my heart always.
{{HUGS}}
Hope Kyndra feels better soon.

Caroline

Debby@Just Breathe said...

Sorry you didn't get a chance to go to the cemetery. Happy that you enjoyed your food. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. ((HUGS))

Lori said...

I think you are right...I pretty much realize how thankful I am most every day and a specific day to acknowledge doesn't always seem so authentic as being grateful regularly in every day things.

Glad that it was easier this year...though I know that in saying that, it still doesn't mean that it was easy at all. Just goes to show how hard it is to be a mom to a little one in Heaven, whatever the day is.

xoxoxoxo

AKD said...

This was our second Thanksgiving without Maddie, too - I had a time this weekend where my husband cared for Alice while I just lied in bed and cried. It's so hard, but you're right - easier than last year.

I hope that you had many, many happy moments.

Melissa said...

Wishing our girls would have been here for the holiday...

big hugs to you.

Jill said...

Crazy to think two years is approaching. This was my second Thanksgiving without my babes and it was easier than last. I too thought about last year and how hard it was.

Sarita Boyette said...

Thinking of you - hard to believe Carleigh has been gone that long. I'm glad this Thanksgiving was easier on you - hope you get through Christmas better as well. xoxoxo

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

That is really crazy...that two years is so close. I'm glad you enjoyed some yummy food...me too. =)

LetterstoClaire said...

You are absolutely right- we don't need a day to remember all the things we are thankful for, especially if we are mindful of them through out the year. My loss of Claire has definitely helped me be conscientious of all the blessings in my life on a day-to-day basis

Betty said...

I dont know if would normally be this hard, or if it's the pregnancy hormones...but this entire holiday season has been so hard for me too. Our due date is tomorrow and the full moon was a week ago today. I cant help but wonder if she would have been a week old right now. I'm glad to read it does get easier! Just when I think I've buried everything I find myself randomly bawling somewhere.

Betty said...

I dont know if would normally be this hard, or if it's the pregnancy hormones...but this entire holiday season has been so hard for me too. Our due date is tomorrow and the full moon was a week ago today. I cant help but wonder if she would have been a week old right now. I'm glad to read it does get easier! Just when I think I've buried everything I find myself randomly bawling somewhere.

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