NILMDTS slideshow

Sometimes I like to go through Carleigh's pictures and slideshows and just look at them. I cherish the time that we got to spend with her and I wish that we could have had more time than what we did. Over 9 months in my belly and just a few days in my arms seems like so little time compared to the lifetime we have ahead of us without her.

I thought I would share the slideshow that our NILMDTS photographer made for us. I remember the first time I watched it I was kinda upset because there are pictures in the slideshow that I don't have myself. I'm not sure why we didn't get them but at least I have them here. So, enjoy a few of the moments that we spent with our little girl.

6 months

It's hard to believe it's been 6 months since we said hello and goodbye to our sweet daughter.

6 months.....184 days......

It feels like so long ago that I held my Carleigh in my arms and basked in her presence. It's getting more difficult to remember what she felt like in my arms. This is when I wish I could freeze time so that no more would pass and I could stop the memories from fading. I know those moments will never truly disappear from my memory, but the farther I get away from March 28, 2009, the fuzzier they become. I'm quite thankful I have so many pictures, videos, and keepsakes. I'm also thankful that I blogged about so many moments so that I will always have them.

The day went fine for me. Work was.....well, work. After said work, I picked up Kyndra from the sitter's and we went out to the cemetery. I didn't realize how windy today was until we were out there. Pulling up I could see that half of Carleigh's flower arrangement in her vase was missing. The wind had ripped it away. I left Kyndra in the van and went to survey the damage. There was a lot missing so I looked over the surrounding area to see if I could retrieve any of the missing flowers. I found most of them right in front of her stone, thank goodness. I also found one of her purple flowers quite a few yards away. I was able to put all the flowers back in and I made sure I pushed them in as far as I could to help prevent them from blowing away again. I guess we'll see if I was successful on the next visit.

I created a slideshow of her NILMDTS pictures to share today.



Carleigh,
Words can never express how much I love and miss you. While there is pain in my heart from losing you, there is also tremendous joy from knowing you. What a blessing you are to me! You will always be my shining star. Twinkle brightly my sweet little girl.
Love always,
Mommy

Final Preparations

Today was the day to get everything finalized and prepared for this weekend. Tomorrow we are having a visitation from 6-8 pm at the funeral home. Saturday we will have a visitation from 10-11 am and then the service will start at 11 am. I can't believe that this time has come already. It's hard for me to grasp that Saturday will be the last time I will see my little girl this side of Heaven. I don't want to let her go yet but I know I have to. We will be going to the funeral home early tomorrow and I have every intention of taking Carleigh out of her casket and holding her close. I probably won't even put her back for the actual visitation. I'd rather her be in my arms anyway. I don't see Brian or Craig having any problems with me doing that. They've been very kind to us.

Pastor Mark came to our house today to go over a little bit about her service on Saturday. He wanted to get an idea of what we wanted and how it was going to flow. I think we pretty much have it figured out. Later we went to Jarrod and Lindsey's house to finish up working on Carleigh's slideshow for the service. It turned out wonderful. It's guaranteed to draw the tears.

Thanks to everyone who has sent us cards or flowers and thought of and prayed for us.