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4 months
What would you be doing if you were here?
You'd be able to push yourself up a little when you are on your tummy. Would you like tummy time or make a fuss? You might even be able to roll over with enough practice. You'd be discovering that you can laugh and would enjoy it so much. Mommy would make silly faces at you and tickle your tummy to try and get you to make that wonderful sound.
You would enjoy nursing just as much as mommy and would love being carried around in your sling. Mommy, Kyndra, and you would all take a nice bubble bath together and play in the water. You would be close to growing out of your Kissaluv cloth dipes. Mommy stalked Diaperswappers for months just to get those dipes for you to wear.
Mommy would sit in the rocker and read I Love You Through and Through to you and your sister. Instead, I am just reading it to your sister. She loves reading that book. Would you look like your sister and have her personality too? Maybe as you got older people would think you were twins like they did with mommy and your Aunt Trina. You and Kyndra would probably be wearing matching outfits already.
I miss all these things that never got to happen.
Today, overall, has been pretty good. I put in my shift at work and picked up Kyndra from the sitter. We went and visited Carleigh since today is a special day. We enjoyed our time at the cemetery, but only stayed for about 10 minutes. The part I love is when we leave. Seems kinda odd, I know, but it's what Kyndra does when we leave that I just love. When it is time to go I tell her to give sissy a kiss and she leaves a little kiss on Carleigh's headstone. It's too precious for words.
I want to thank Alison for sending me a photo of Carleigh's name in the sand in Florida. As she wrote Carleigh's name she said a prayer asking for the Lord to continue to give us peace and bless us. I just love seeing her name written. I love that someone else (other than me) was thinking of Carleigh at that moment. Thank you so much.
After receiving Alison's photo, I decided to make a separate album for pictures of Carleigh's name written. So far I have her name written in Hawaii by Emily, Australia by Carly, New Jersey by Christina, and now Florida by Alison. Thank you to each one of these special ladies!
Happy 4 months in Heaven, my sweet one.
