I’ve been reflecting a lot lately. I think mostly because so many of my friends have been celebrating the birthdays of their precious babies. They have made it through another year of life without their baby/babies and it seems so unfair. Then I think how we just celebrated Carleigh’s 3rd birthday. How has it been 3 years? I won’t lie, it has gotten easier and I’m glad for that but it still sucks a lot sometimes though. Like the times when a song comes on and it totally takes me back. Or when an innocent stranger asks about my kids. Even when I look at my girls who seem perfectly spaced in age yet what people don’t see is the little girl who isn’t there. These moments can tear at your heart. I know those who have been there get that.
I guess I’m just missing her more lately. For no reason other than I just am.