I decided to take part in the music class that is being hosted by CarlyMarie’s Project Heal. Music means a lot to many of us and has a big place in my own life so this is the perfect opportunity to share.
For the first music class we are to share about the music that we love. Did we grow up with it or play an instrument? What about singing? Has music played a role after loss? Feel free to share and link up too!
I think I’ve always grown up loving music. When I was younger I took piano lessons and while I enjoyed it until I decided I loved gymnastics more. Those lessons though allowed me to learn what music was about so when it came time to join the band in school I was all for it. I decided the clarinet was instrument for me and I stuck with it all through high school and even dabbled with the oboe and played the saxophone in the jazz band. I had a natural knack for the clarinet and even made 1st chair and won some awards. My band teacher urged me to play in college but I decided not to. I wanted to focus on my studies. I did give one last hoorah though when I played in an orchestra for a musical. That was a neat experience. I then sold my clarinet and I really wish I would’ve kept it because there are times I would love to just pick it up and play and feel the fluidity of the notes as I played them. And I could go and buy another clarinet but the one I had was special and it was familiar. I have played other ones before but my hands never felt comfortable on them like it did with the one that was truly mine. I honestly miss playing and if I ever came across my old clarinet I don’t think I would hesitate to buy it back.
Along with playing an instrument growing up I also sang quite a bit and was pretty good. I often got the lead in our class plays. (Not sure if it was my singing or the fact that the main character always seemed to have blonde hair…..) People said I sang good and I just took their word for it. I really don’t think I’m that great of a singer now but I do enjoy singing, especially in my car and at church too. I love cranking up the music and singing at the top of my lungs.
As far as listening to music I mostly listen to Christian music and I like to listen to the Christian radio station KLOVE. It wasn’t that long ago that I used to listen to “regular” radio but with more and more songs singing about sex, drugs, and money it was becoming less and less appealing to me. It seems to me that music today isn’t as good as the music of yesteryear was. We loved listening to The Beach Boys growing up and I still love listening to them. It always reminds me of the times we’d take the boat out and we’d put in a Beach Boys cassette and it made it feel more like summer, which is why I love listening to them in the summer the most. Chicago was another one of my favorites from back then. There are more but those are the top two and the ones I have the greatest hits CDs of.
Music have become even more important to me since there are many songs I feel connect with what I am feeling. There were quite a few songs in the beginning after Carleigh was born that would bring tears to my eyes. I could always make a song relate to my loss in some way it seemed. There are still times and songs that can get to me.
One of the songs I’m currently loving at the moment is The Light In Me by Brandon Heath.