Return to Zero

This amazing movie about stillbirth premiered last night on Lifetime. It was the first global premiere of a movie on Lifetime and I’m so glad it was a movie that touched on stillbirth, loss, and grief.

RETURN TO ZERO - Official Trailer from Sean Hanish on Vimeo.

I won’t talk about what happened as not to spoil it for anyone who hasn’t seen it but I will say that it was AMAZING. It was so true to life and I was able to relate to it, as were many others. This movie could only have been made by someone who has been there. Anyone else would never got it right.

The movie is available for preorder on Amazon. I definitely want to get this movie.

I will say that at the end of the movie before the credits were the names of many babies. People were given an opportunity to donate towards the movie to help fund it and if they did they were able to have their baby/babies’ name(s) at the end of the film. I donated through stillbirthday for the movie and I had Carleigh, Jordan, and Leah put in it. Although, I wish I would have put that Leah’s last name was different because they grouped her with my babies’ last name. That’s ok though, she was still there.

I highly recommend seeing the movie, but I will also warn you that it is emotional. Have tissues!!!

Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day is here again. Honestly, I don’t even care. Both my husband and I don’t really put much emphasis on giving each other stuff on days like this, our birthdays, or Christmas. I’m really glad we don’t. I see all these people who get so disappointed when the day isn’t what they expected it to be.

My husband and girls did wish me a Happy Mother’s Day and gave me a card, but that was the extent of “celebrating” the day.

I had thought maybe to go out to the cemetery, but we didn’t. After church, I was just ready to go home.

So wishing all the mothers out there today a Happy Mother’s Day….whether your baby is here on earth, in Heaven, or only in your heart.

Carleigh’s custom ornament

I won the custom ornament from Sarah’s Tiny Treasures that was on the SGM auction this spring. I received it not long ago and I just love it. It’s so pretty!!

Happy Birthday Leah

Today is my niece Leah’s 2nd birthday. Remembering and loving her still….

Carleigh’s Birthday Celebration

Normally for Carleigh’s birthday we go somewhere on a family day, but we weren’t able to do that this year since we had to leave for a trip that day. We did go to the cemetery and release balloons in the morning. We released 2 pink star balloons and a big unicorn balloon. It was a chilly morning so we didn’t stay long.

I got Carleigh cupcakes and a cake with a unicorn theme to it. The cake was chocolate with buttercream frosting. The cupcakes were chocolate with a peanut butter filling and buttercream frosting. The little unicorns on top were edible and pretty good! Rachel’s Cakes made both her cake and cupcakes.

After the cemetery, we drove back up to my IL’s house and we had the cake and cupcakes with everyone. They had gotten them the night before for us. We took the girls out to my parent’s house with a few of the cupcakes to eat. Both were so delicious!!